I should feel good.

I have a brand new laptop, an early birthday present from my dad. It's not top of the line or the latest model, but it's brand new and not a bare-bones model either. I've been setting it up with all the things I need for my internetting. I named it Xoanon.

But I don't feel good. I don't feel good physically; too much caffeine and too little sleep the past few days have me feeling dreadful and throwing up. I don't feel good emotionally; I stumbled onto something triggering unexpectedly and it had a real domino effect and I have a headache from crying. And I need to get my med refills.

Fuck, I think I'm gonna spew again...

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i feel so bad right now

can't stop crying

really, really shouldn't be trying to read Alison Bechdel's Are You My Mother? right now

not sure if i should take my meds since i keep puking

and all sorts of miseries are being stirred up, stuff from months ago, stuff from decades ago

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