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I am so tired of literally begging my caseworker and counselor for help in tears and being brushed off.

I am just... so tired

so tired of being alone

scared of how sick and weak I feel

tired of people expecting me to have resources I don't have access to

tired of people expecting me to be resilient when I am disintegrating and there is no one to help

tired of "you can do it!" when I am not managing and I have been struggling for years and it just gets worse

I need help and I have run out of energy trying to get it