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I'm so tired. I'm not quite capable of managing on my own, which is humiliating, but I don't have anyone to help me when I'm not able to take care of myself, which is depressing at the best of times and terrifying in a crisis. And it doesn't help that the friends I have who help as much as possible are far away. And the current political climate and threats of cuts to SSDI and Medicare and (further) cuts to SNAP and HUD make it even harder to try to deal with a personal rough patch, because it's so likely to only get much worse no matter what.