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[atalantapendrag]

Yesterday was productive.

I psyched myself up in full girl drag - dress, loose flowing hair, eye makeup (Shiro Cosmetics Shinigami accented with Rebellion) and scent (BPAL's Molly Grue).

I was able to force myself into the clinic.

I raised my concerns in group about the WHEATFIELD WITH CROWS poster in group and the group leader was supportive of my concerns and the importance of pursuing it with my individual therp.

When I talked to my individual therp, she seemed to take it a lot more seriously, and it seemed like something was clicking for her more, like she was grokking something she hadn't picked up on before. Which is fair because I'd just had a major personal realization of why that particular painting shakes me so much (basically, a bit on it in a Time-Life book is read and re-read obsessively as a child was my indroduction to the concept of suicide). And she agreed to see if the poster could be moved!

So normally I'd be feeling pretty good but today I have to go in to see the pdoc so, more stress, as well as having to bus around on a hot day. On the plus side, the pdoc's office is in the same strip mall as a liquor store that sells rompope, so I can get a bottle.

Comments

[sathari]

You are a rock star for all of that!!!!

[subluxate]

Fuck yeah, go you! That's huge!

[atalantapendrag]

If it actually does get taken down/moved, it will really raise my opinion of the place, and make it easier to go in... if my therp has managed to get any grasp of my personality at all, she'll get that it'll make me feel obligated to force myself in even when I feel horrible if they've made such an accommodation for me.