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[atalantapendrag]

The therapists at the clinic are happy with me. They're pleased that I've been able to make it in for six weeks in a row, impressed by my comfort box, glad to hear I am actively writing. I could feel myself slipping into putting-up-a-good-front mode, which is really not helpful. Social pressure interfering with treatment, yay. So much pressure to be "normal", to be "fine", and I can fake it for a few hours but it's taxing. And it's so ingrained that I can't always control it.

And I can even relax after getting through Thanksgiving; in addition to Monday morning at the clinic, I have to go to my Section 8 renewal meeting on Wednesday, and I have to go in for a meds check early on Friday. Ugh.

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[sathari]

Good for you for recognizing the putting-up-a-good-front mode! In addition to everything else you've accomplished--- YAY writing in particular!--- that is a big one.

And, ugh, sorry about the clot of meetings and bustle and stress you have upcoming!

[atalantapendrag]

A friend of mine has the same issue, and we've talked about it. Good for staying out of trouble short-term (I've talked my way out of an involuntary hospitalization or two!), but when I slip into it in therapy it's really not helpful.

I got all signed up with Graze finally! Went through all the categories and rated everything. Thanks again for the invite code, I'm curious to see what they send me, some of the snacks looked really yummy.

And I am still managing at least a sentence a day!

[sathari]

(...wow am I failing at timely commenting at the moment! Mea culpa!)

Yeah, things that are awesome coping skills in one setting can turn problematic on the proverbial dime in another--- that is awesome that you've figured it out and also that you have someone with the same issue to talk with!

Ooh, I can't wait to hear what you think of Graze--- I've been enjoying the boxes they send me, even if I don't like every single thing; they're still a fun little surprise and sometimes things I didn't think I would like turn out to be yummy. (Their seed mixes, for example, taste AWESOME with eggs.)

Yay for writing--- that is fantastic!!! *hugs*