I hate how sad, scared, and angry I am all the time. I have so many traumas connected to being abruptly forced to move that I can barely get my brain to process what decade it is, let alone do anything useful. And I worry about Slarti. He's been doing so well here and he's had so much to adapt to. Then in such a short time he lost all his friends one by one except for me. TBH, I'm worried about Kuno a little too but she's no longer my concern.

I never got to know enough of Spokane to miss it and that makes me sad too. And I won't see the fall here, and I know it's beautiful.

Neither is About Me of course but having Sinead O'Connor (Shuhada Sadaqat in her personal life since converting, tho I had to look that up) and Pee Wee Herman passing in quick succession was a blow to my lil Gen X heart.

I'm leaving this private for now. I might delete it or unlock it later. I don't know. I need to get my thoughts out, because I am absolutely suicidal and if this is the thing that breaks me I want the people I love to understand.

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Comfort-rewatching The Great Season 2 in anticipation of being able to squee with sathari about it.

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My cousin sent me a one line email this morning telling me our grandmother died last Thursday and was buried on Sunday.

WTF my family.